A few (!) things I think about on one 44 minute train journey
Anyone else's mind regularly overheating?
I saw a balding guard who reminded me of Father Jack, and I thought how funny that we were all babies once.
Parentification, and how folks won’t even realise it’s a trauma, and how anxiety inducing it can be for them into adulthood and old age.
Monoculture and polyculture and how we are encouraged to buy Apple products, wear Nike and listen to Beyoncé, and how I’d never suggest a playlist for when I’m with anyone, apart from those who know me deeply, as I’m the ‘weird one’ and I’d just spend the half an hour defending it feeling bad.
How if I wrote and sang a song about my baby, I’d have to pretend it was about someone I didn’t know, to even have a tiny hope of not crying through it all.
How we accept the insanity of suits for jobs, and how someone will never think of this their whole life.
Are bladder transplants a thing?
How winter sunlight has more magic than summer sunlight.
I wonder what (insert person from very long ago who I may or may not have known well) is doing now.
The madness that banks exist and are acceptable.
My solo Edinburgh Festival show about office meltdowns was fun, but I didn’t really know myself then. I just hated on all offices because they compounded my poor mental health and lead to many neurodivergent burnouts - but they suit some people, and that’s ok! More than ok. What a good example of black and white thinking, right? Which ironically is also very ASD…
The reason my brain may be on fire because I think so much all the time. And then I thought about making this mad list. Meta.
How Meta have stolen an excellent word.